Thursday, July 26, 2012

Stuck.


    Lately, the husband and I have been doing a lot of talking about moving back to this beautiful place-St. George, Utah. It started months ago when my husband just randomly asked what I thought about moving back there. I snickered and said, "Sure, why not," thinking he was joking. But slowly the idea of moving back has been growing into more. My husband has recently applied to a couple jobs in St. George and he has a couple of friends looking for other openings. We are patiently impatiently waiting to hear something back from them.
     We are unhappy with our lives here in Marietta, Ohio. Its a small town full of small minds and big egos. We are a household of big dreams, open minds and an appetite for adventure that we just don't get here. Don't get me wrong, I love this little area. I grew up here and I think its beautiful in its own way, but I've out grown it. I've had a taste for something different and now I am craving it.
    Within the last couple of weeks I have been day dreaming of what our lives could be like back in Utah. We'd have my nephews, friends, and adventure close by. My husband wouldn't have to work 2 jobs just to make ends meet. I'd have a reliable friend (my sister-in-law) to turn to when I need someone to talk to. The schools are much better there, not half as much school levy drama as there is here. And the area is growing. I want to be a part of an area that is thriving instead of being one that is slowly becoming a black hole. 
     However, I have this huge fear of confronting my family with this idea. They hate the thought of us moving just like I hate the thought of leaving them behind, but we need to watch out for ourselves. This area is no good for us. We are struggling here and I honestly don't see any silver lining. I told my sister about this idea yesterday and she started crying. I understand why, I do, but where is the support? Its not like they won't ever get to see us. There's airplanes and video chat, but then again I still understand. There's not a week that goes by that we don't see the family, but we still need to look out for our well being. 
       I'm so sorry for being so blah today. I desperately needed to get this off my chest and if anyone has any ideas as to how to handle the situation, please send them my way. 
       Also, if you could keep your fingers crossed for us that would be fantastic.



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4 comments:

  1. Sending you lots of positive thoughts... :)

    Jennifer

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  2. I hope you guys here something back that helps give you direction about what to do! My husband and I live close to both our families but technically still live in a different town altogether. Will be thinking of you lots! And don't apologize for saying what's on your mind :)

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  3. I found you at meandthemoon's blog hop!! Love your blog and it's name. So cute!!

    Hope you will stop by!
    www.hurleylove.blogspot.com

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  4. Fingers crossed for you...I understand how you feel. I have bounced in between California and Texas 3 times and I am thinking about going back again...or somewhere else. I am torn between not wanting to leave my family either and although it may be hard for both of us, I know that the right choice is "happiness" {and wherever that may lead me}. Will be sending positive vibes your way...you will figure out the right decision!

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